Healing The Hurt

If you've ever had your heart broken, you know the pain it causes. You know the sunken feeling that you get that you can't seem to shake. That feeling that a part of you is missing that you may never get back. It's tough. And everybody around you tells you, "you're going to get through this" which you know to be true, but it just doesn't feel like it. You sit thinking about what went wrong, what you could have changed, how you can make it right. The thing about being hurt is that one of two things can happen. First you can allow God to heal you and you  can come out stronger, wiser and ready for God to bless you with what He has for you, or you can push the feelings aside and pray they eventually go away. 

Often times, I feel like the latter is what most people tend to do, at least that's what I did. I knew that in time, I would feel better, and I did, but it was superficial. I didn't "feel" those hurt feelings at the surface, but they were still there, I just had suppressed them. 

Last year I wrote a blog about how heartbreak can be a healer. I talked about how if you let God heal you, you can learn a beautiful lesson and end up being better. I didn't take my own advice. 

I thought I was okay. I thought I was over everything that had happened. But the truth is I wasn't okay. I wasn't over it. But I subconsciously suppressed everything that I felt and pretended like it didn't exist. In my mind, eventually the pain, the anger, the disappointment would go away. I didn't know how to deal with it. So I didn't. 

And I didn't realize it until this year. I was forced to face all of those things I was feeling because like anything you suppress, it will eventually come back up. And because of that, over the past few months I've had to learn some hard lessons and I hurt people along the way. 

I've learned that in order to deal with your hurt and allow God to heal you, you have to actually face it. You have to allow yourself to feel all of the things you don't want to feel and find a way to truly let them go. 

I've learned that some days you'll feel like you can conquer anything and other days you feel like nothing is right. But in the end, feelings are just feelings and not necessarily reality. So just because you feel like things are bad, doesn't mean they actually are. 

I'm still learning that everything happens for a reason. I know that God has a plan for my life, but in times of unrest, I find myself wondering why things didn't go the way I thought they should have. I can't always see what God is doing. But I know that if I continue to be obedient and follow what He is telling me to do, I will eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

Healing is a journey. One that has to constantly be worked on. Trust God and truly allow Him to heal you. Don't hold back or suppress any feelings. Deal with them the right way.