Forgive Yourself

I came across this song called "I forgive me" by James Fortune and I've been listening to it on repeat for the past few weeks. When I find a song I like and that seems to apply to my life or something I'm going through, I get a little obsessed. 

The beginning lyrics of the song are, 

"I decided to stop replaying regrets 
And I decided to tell my past goodbye, 
I cannot change what I did, 
But it didn't change what you gave me, 
When you took my place, 
No more guilt but grace" 

And I started to think of all the times I tried to forgive myself for things that I've ever done wrong. For me it's easier to forgive others than it is for me to forgive myself. 

I have this thing where I feel like I'm not supposed to do anything wrong. I know I'm not perfect, but I don't like making mistakes. I don't like being wrong. One of my flaws is always trying to be perfect at things, when I know that perfect doesn't exist. I feel like it I'm the best I can make everybody happy. But the problem is that I'm so worried about making everybody happy that I stop focusing on who and what is really important and I end up making more mistakes in the process. 

I always try to be the best that I can be and it causes me to become very critical of myself, sometimes too critical. So whenever I make a mistake, or hurt someone, it's hard for me to let it go. I sit there and I ask myself questions like, "why did you do that?", "why would you do something so terrible?" And I'm here to tell you NOT to do this. It is one of the most self destructive things that you can do to yourself. 

Life is all about choices. When you make decisions, whether good or bad, you need to learn how to deal with the effects. You can't change the past, so there's no point in dwelling in it. But that's what I did for so long. I dwelled in the past and it prevented me from learning and growing in certain areas and it caused me to make decisions that I can't change. 

Just because you make a mistake, you hurt someone, or you do something you wish you hadn't, doesn't mean that you can't learn from it. This is the time to say to yourself, "I know I was wrong, I know I messed up, but how can I prevent this from happening again?" "What can I do differently next time?" "What did I learn that will make me better prepared in the future?" 

Don't beat yourself up for making mistakes, you're human. You're not always going to get it right, and that's okay. Learn, grow and forgive yourself, you'll be better for it. <3 



Love, 

JayCherie