Emotionally Stable

It's November 1st, and in 18 days I will be 23 years old. And for the last 22 years, or as far back as I can remember, I have been one of the most emotional people ever. For a while I was beginning to think that being emotional was a bad thing. It always caused me so many problems. Everything makes me cry... being mad, sad, happy, annoyed, you name it, if the emotion is strong enough, I'll most likely start crying and I can't seem to stop it... Unfortunate I know.

Over the past few months as I've really started to look at myself and who I am, I've realized that being emotional is not as bad as I had began to believe. Being emotional is part of what makes me who I am, a very loving, compassionate, and empathetic person. I've learned that the problem wasn't being emotional, it was not being able to control the emotions or channel them in the right directions. I would get emotional and expect somebody else to fix it. But the truth is, I'm control of how I feel, nobody else. I can't let things out of my control determine whether or not I'm at peace within. And over the last few months, I've really learned to handle everything in life and keep my peace.

Earlier this week, I had a moment of weakness. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I had an idea of what it was and sure that played a part into why I wasn't at peace, but I knew that it wasn't just that cut and dry. So I prayed and I asked God to restore my peace because it was gone and once He did, I realized what was wrong.

I had allowed my happiness to be controlled by external circumstances. I've learned that every time that happens, I lose control over myself. I lose control of my emotions and my mind, and it's reflected externally... most of the time leading to unnecessary turmoil. Although it was a temporary moment of backsliding, I can't allow that to happen. I've moved past that phase of my life and if I continue to allow it to happen, it may eventually lead me to go back to old habits. Like a recovering alcoholic, they can't just take a sip and act like everything is all good and continue to say "oh, it won't happen again", they must be intentional about keeping control of themselves or it most likely will happen again.

Being stable in your emotions is important because if you're emotionally unstable, it's destructive and counterproductive to God's plan for your life. Trust God and don't allow what's happening around you to disturb your inner peace. If you can't control it, don't stress it!

Love,

JayCherie