Heartbreak is a healer

I didn't know who I was anymore when I looked in the mirror. What had my life become? Had I became the author for a story I know nothing about? I was successful for the most part. I had a full scholarship for my undergraduate career and I had an internship or research fellowship every summer. I got into a PhD program that was fully funded with a stipend, so I had no student loans, and I was able to provide for myself. I was in a relationship that wasn't perfect, but I was hopeful and I made it look like the fairytale I wanted it to be. So from the outside looking in, life was pretty great. But on the inside I was dying. I had everything that you would think that I could ever want, but I wasn't happy inside. I wasn't walking in my purpose. I wasn't following God's plan. So that's when God went to work.

For me it started with heartbreak, and as crazy as it may sound, heartbreak can heal you, that is if you let God do the healing.

Heartbreak can feel like the worst thing in the world. It's like taking something that's attached to your body and ripping it off. It leaves you vulnerable, it leaves wounds that eventually turn into scars. But for me, it gave me hope. 

I had to find God's love. 

God has always been a central part of my life. My morals and my values are all centered around God. But a lot of times, my relationship with God got put on the back burner without even realizing it. When heartbreak came, God showed me just how much He loved me. I saw how He was always there, through every weak moment, for all of the tears, He was always there. The love that I was looking for can only be found through Him, and that's when the healing began.

Losing someone you love can be like losing a piece of yourself, but the thing about it is, if you let God fill the emptiness you feel, you'll feel a joy that is indescribable. It felt like the day would never come where I would wake up and be happy just because. For the longest time, I thought the tears would never stop. It felt like I'd never be "okay", but today, I'm better than "okay". I'm great! Because God loves me, and if that's all He ever does for me, that's more than enough.

Happy Friday!

Love,

JayCherie